Truthfully, there isn't a lot to say.
I decided not to renew my contract. Well, actually I did renew, but the next day talked to the principal, who talked to the superintendent, who said he would consider it unsigned (meaning, I don't have to say I backed out of a contract).
Now, as Karl puts it, I have buyers remorse, but really two hours in the car a day was just too much. So while, being the worrywart that I am, it bugs me, I think it wasn't a horrible choice. The hardest blow is the blow to my identity. It's hard to go from being a teacher with a position to a sub. I am still looking for work, but with two kids still needing all day care, I want it to be within 30 minutes of home, unless I got a regular ed position. I am so curious what that would be like, I'd make a longish drive. If that doesn't work, then I will sub. It's risky, but whatever. I have to learn to handle the anxiety. I would be just as concerned if I had decided to stay, and the thought of two hours wasted in the car, worrying about the care the little one was getting.
Actually what killed me the most was getting home from work and finding the house completely trashed. Taryn said it was like that already when she got home, Tierney said no, it happened after she left. Either way, coming home to food crumbs all over the livingroom, dishes, clothes, and toys everywhere, was just too much. I would have to clean after getting home, and the whole thing was absurd. Of course, there is the option of daycare, but, IT'S TOO LATE NOW!
So that's, what is up with me!
If I am going to continue to blog, I need to organize my thoughts and blog better so watch for that!
This is the first segment, Monday Musings. This is the day I get to ruminate and fuss over stuff, and really drink in the drama. Exciting, huh?
I decided not to renew my contract. Well, actually I did renew, but the next day talked to the principal, who talked to the superintendent, who said he would consider it unsigned (meaning, I don't have to say I backed out of a contract).
Now, as Karl puts it, I have buyers remorse, but really two hours in the car a day was just too much. So while, being the worrywart that I am, it bugs me, I think it wasn't a horrible choice. The hardest blow is the blow to my identity. It's hard to go from being a teacher with a position to a sub. I am still looking for work, but with two kids still needing all day care, I want it to be within 30 minutes of home, unless I got a regular ed position. I am so curious what that would be like, I'd make a longish drive. If that doesn't work, then I will sub. It's risky, but whatever. I have to learn to handle the anxiety. I would be just as concerned if I had decided to stay, and the thought of two hours wasted in the car, worrying about the care the little one was getting.
Actually what killed me the most was getting home from work and finding the house completely trashed. Taryn said it was like that already when she got home, Tierney said no, it happened after she left. Either way, coming home to food crumbs all over the livingroom, dishes, clothes, and toys everywhere, was just too much. I would have to clean after getting home, and the whole thing was absurd. Of course, there is the option of daycare, but, IT'S TOO LATE NOW!
So that's, what is up with me!
If I am going to continue to blog, I need to organize my thoughts and blog better so watch for that!
This is the first segment, Monday Musings. This is the day I get to ruminate and fuss over stuff, and really drink in the drama. Exciting, huh?
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