Work

I don't want to work full-time an hour away from my kids.
I want to be who I am supposed to be-living on a larger plot of land, gardening, homeschooling, relaxing.
I feel so trapped, but I know working is better in the long run.

I hate our nasty, unnatural society, where you have to hand over your babies to someone else to make a living.
It's all part of breaking down the family, just enough to make us all isolated individuals, easy to control and direct. Yeah, that's a little RWN (right wing nut)...but sometimes so am I.



Sigh.

So August

In August, I will start my new job. Part of me wants to pull out of the deal, and just stick with parttime subbing, but I know for our own security, we need my income. As it stands now, Tierney is going to watch the kids for $10 an hour, from about 7-11 or so in the mornings, and then Karl will get up. Plus in the afternoons on Tuesday and Thursday when Karl has classes.

Karl is wanting to go to a day schedule as soon as possible, but it's hard to say how that is going to work out with classes and Tierney. The school I am going to is rather low-paying, and we won't be able to afford regular fulltime daycare for the little boys, and I want to avoid finding someone on Craigslist for as long as possible.

I am heartbroken at leaving them, of course, but excited to be doing elementary special ed. It will be a whole new challenge. I have a lot to learn-when I did middle school special ed, the kids were sent to me in regular 55 minute classes. Now I will have to get with the teachers and schedule the time they come. Ideally, I will be able to work my own "classes" so I can work with the kids who are in there on  one thing, but we'll see. I also think I may have to learn to test them for services. I have given an series of tests before for a  class, but it's been a long time. I'll learn, I suppose. I just hope I can make it a fun  and safe place where students who need extra help are really able to make progress and enjoy it.

I could say so much more, but...the boys are all over me today!

Busy Day!

Somehow...I have to get Taryn and Caleb to the Dentist by 11, Caleb to counseling by 1, birthday party  at the hospital for Madison at 2:30, and Taryn to cheer at 7:30..and pick up a birthday gift (from Penny's because I need to use my charge-I am buh-roke), before the party. Yep...a cringe-worthy day..Slowly revving my engines...need more coffee.

A little help people?

It's child1s job to straighten and sweep the livingroom, a job which done daily would take less than ten minutes. THIS is what I swept up from under the couch and loveseat and around the corners (it does NOT include the pile of shoes under the table behind the door. And the kids call me a nag when I ask them to do their chores. And I came home at 10:15 last night and child3 still hadn't put the dishes away (less than five minutes of work a day), so I had to leave a sink of dirty dishes, which is really disgusting. I really think it's time to start taking phones away.

The next change

I am always sitting around waiting for the  next change in my life, so much so, that today gets lost in the shuffle. So....I have decided to change that-today!

A few months ago, I signed up to perhaps be a curriculum reviewer. About six weeks ago, they wrote and invited me to send a link to something I had reviewed. I never got around to it. I am of two minds. For one, I hate hate hate, when a blog become cluttered with reviews, but two, it's a good way to get your blog out there. So. Maybe next time?

Oh, and I swear it smells yeasty, like beer right here. I wonder if Karl snuck a beer in last night.

So, anyway. The summer plans.

Well, never mind. As I was perusing the library web site, I cam upon this:

• Racing to Read Storytime
  10:00 am for all ages.
  Our interactive storytimes introduce young children to books, reading and language with stories, songs and activities. Parents learn fun ways to build the early literacy skills their children need to learn to read.

And all I have to say is REALLY?!

Why the early literacy skills? Kids are not just education projects in the making. Why not storytime for fun?! I just...think....we ....treat...our kids....as....projects....(myself included)....and it's part....of why....the world...is so....unhappy....and....disconnected. 

Love,

Jill

Ideals versus reality

Ideally you won't have to rush out of bed anymore to get dressed for work.
Reality is, you are still up with a kid, and now you look like crap.

Ideally you will provide your child a top-notch classical education, instructing
  the whole child with the beauty of nature AND the beauty of a well-written word.
Reality is, you just turned that whiny Caillou on for the third time today. Or worse,
  your three year old can turn it on himself on your Kindle.

Ideally you will provide home-cooked nourishing meals.
Reality is, your three year just knocked the bowl of nourishing meal (soaked in syrup, of course) on
  the floor because you nixed eating in the livingroom.

Ideally you finally have time to clean the house.
Reality is, you don't now where to start, and while you are cleaning one area, another area is being     demolished.

Ideally you finally have time to keep up with the details of your older kids' lives.
Reality is, they don't want you to keep up, unless you are buying them something.


Some days, I wish ... the two would meet.

Ideals meet reality. Reality, be kind.

Outside time!

Rabid dog pose?

Climbing the corporate ladder already? Karl'd be mortified because he wants the steps painted...Does he realize how much work that would be? I prefer shabby;o).

 Worker Bee

Liam said he had a "difficult job" to do.